always follow the voices beneath | childhood | for llinos

[cadcamlan]

It isn't that he's never seen a girl before. He has. His aunt is, technically, a girl--just taller and prouder and with the same unbridled ferocity in her toothy grin as he could faintly remember from his jumbled recollection of his mother. Then there's the mouse of a girl who helps keep things tidy in their little corner of the woods, who brings him little bits of sweets and suet among the apples and pinches his cheek fondly when he puts the gathered wood into neat piles. And there are the girls who flit through their lives like so many fluttering birds, stopping for a while to consult with his aunt and leaving with long straight spines and a secret in their smiles.

It's more that he's rarely ever seen one so close to his own age.

That's what's fascinating. This girl doesn't stand a head above him the way most other girls do. She doesn't have the sway in her body of the girls who sweep through their lives (teenagers, although he hasn't quite learned that yet). She's small the way he is; less a miniature of what he's used to and more something that comes before.

He doesn't know what to do with it. He knows to slip in silent shadow past the visitors and to tug affectionately at the swish of the cleaning girl's skirt, but he doesn't know what to make of such a young visitor to the sanctuary of their little glen. Even without a touch of magic, she'd likely have felt the quiet blue eyes (like your father, poor thing, Anti Morgan always tsks) peering uncertainly from the shadow at the door. He's been told to run along and scout about in the woods while Anti holds lessons, but he can't quite make it past the frame.

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[cadcamlan]

It's a lot of smiles. They're softer than what he's used to, even from the woman who smiles most often around him. Morgan has a violence to her smiles that he's well on his way to picking up--on the odd occasion that he does smile.

He's far more distracted by the hand catching around his own. It's a little easier to focus on than her smile.

"--play?"

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

The smile fades into confusion at his question. "A game. Or we could go exploring. Let's do something fun."

Doesn't he know what fun is? Doesn't he want to know? Because she's going to try dragging him off now, away from the grown ups and their judging gazes.

[cadcamlan]

'Fun' is something he has on his own. When his aunt is exhausted and needs to be alone, he gets sent out into the woods for 'fun.' It certainly isn't something any of Morgan's students usually have time for, least of all with the little bright-eyed shadow that haunt around the edges of their attention.

His fingers shift easily out of hers, but his feet continue to pad along beside. This version of 'fun' might be interesting.

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

So long as he's still coming, she doesn't complain. Holding hands too long leads to that icky kissing stuff anyway. She swings her arms easily as she breaks into a skipping-run that lasts until they're beyond the treeline.

"Do you want to play hide and seek? Or do you want to hunt for mushrooms?"

[cadcamlan]

"What's-- hide and seek?"

Mushrooms he knows. The long, half-interesting and half-boring process of finding everything his anti needs from the woods he knows.

Literally hiding or seeking he understands. This concept much less so.

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

"It's a game," she explains patiently, "where one of us hides and the other seeks. The seeker counts out loud while the other players hide, and then announces that they're coming."

She pauses for a moment, head tilted back and to the side as she watches some birds passing overhead.

"We can take turns being the seeker. I bet you know all the best hiding places around here." This is an admirable skill, in her estimation.

[cadcamlan]

The little wrinkle in his brow stays firmly in place for the moment. It's not that it's such a difficult piece of information to grapple with; it's more that he's still young enough to be predominated by certain veins of questions.

"Why?"

It's common to everything these days, but a little more pointed now.

"Why would you-- hide? Is the seeker going to hurt you?"

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

"Oh no. It's a friendly game," she assures him. "It's a game of skill. A way of testing who's a good hider and who's a good seeker."

Of course there are other skills and lessons it teaches, but they're too young to understand that.

[cadcamlan]

"I'm a good hider."

His first hours in the world had been in hiding, after all. Morgan hadn't gotten him very far before those seeking the May 1st children had appeared. It isn't something he remembers, but it's something that's stuck in his sense of self through these last ten years.

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

She smiles again now that he seems to be warming to the idea. "And I'm a good seeker. This should be a lot of fun! I'll count to ten okay?"

[cadcamlan]

Echoing the smile is an unconscious gesture. It happens entirely reflexively.

"I can go anywhere?"

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

It's progress! She counts it as a victory.

"Let's stay in the forest. But anywhere in the forest is fine."

[cadcamlan]

There's one last glance spared back for the little hutch in the glen. There's one last thoughtful moment wondering if his aunt will be cross he's gone missing--or notice at all.

And there's one more appraising consideration of the girl before him, eyes bright and curious.

Then he vanishes with a soft swish of fabric into the woods.

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

She takes that as her cue to start counting, which she does with all her childish patience--that is to say, slowly at first but getting faster as she goes.

"Ready or not, here I come!" Her voice is loud but more carrying than shouting, and she sounds excited. This will be an excellent game.

But instead of hurrying off, she takes her time looking around and considering. A whole new set of hiding places requires she be thoughtful. He might have gone up a tree, or he might be among the ferns behind a rock. She doesn't want to resort to help, not if she can help it.

This might take a while.

[cadcamlan]

It's easy to disappear into these woods. He knows it like he knows the lines in his own hands; like he knows the wrinkles when his aunt smiles.

It's so easy, really, that he'll be spending as much time as he can simply following along behind her. He settles easily into the backs of trees and the shadows of roots; why not use it to watch the other half of the game from a safe distance?

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

Her course seems random, circling this way and then that, avoiding the fox dens and rabbit burrows. There are so many places to hide in this forest, so very many, and she has to check them all. Slowly, patiently, carefully.

And then, after an hour or so has passed, her drowsy pace quickens and now she disappears.

"Oh! Come see what I've found!"

[cadcamlan]

She seems to be following a pattern just beyond him. His own path would have dipped in to see the foxes, skirted close where he could check on the rabbits, circled into the paths frequented by the stags checking their domain.

She's respectful. She's in touch with the woods without being a creature of it. She's fascinating to watch through tendrils of moss.

Her call has him hesitating. He's meant to be hiding, after all. She'll likely feel the prickle of indecision scattering through the air, radiating from him.

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

Ah, clever boy. She had been intending to draw him out and pounce on him when his curiosity made him reveal himself. His hesitation has earned a measure of respect from her.

On the other hand... "I really did find something."

If he come to peek at her, he'll find she's holding something in her hands and seems truly interested in it.

[cadcamlan]

Mordred doesn't have much magic in him. There's a lick of it from his mother--exhausting little flashes of visions which have been slowly beginning to look like the future--but it isn't the sort of genuine talent that runs through Pendragon women.

It's more that he's made good friends with the growth of the woods that makes his voice seem to echo in a little whisper around her. "--is the game over?"

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

Very clever boy. She smiles and sits down on a log, where he could join her if he likes. "Okay. I admit I couldn't find you this time. But come look."

In her hands she's holding a fairy stone, the hole worn soft and smooth, the stone mostly round and just small enough to be cupped in her palm.

[cadcamlan]

Appearing at her shoulder isn't so magical at all. He's just got a delicate step and a very dampened presence from years of being hidden off in the shadows.

"--where'd you find it?"

It's not the sort of something he'd expect to be left at random--or to be taken from a formation.

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

"Just there, on the moss." She holds the stone out to him, if he'd like to examine it. "Do you think we should put it back? This is your forest."

[cadcamlan]

He won't touch it himself, although he bends over it intently. Great care is taken in perching on the log not to actually bump into the girl.

"Yes. With-- a present. To thank them for letting us-- look at it."

[linnetbornwithinthecage]

She nods her agreement with his decision. "That's a good idea. Do you know the fair folk here?"

A present, a present. She'll pull the ribbon from her hair, wrapping and tieing it around the stone.

[cadcamlan]

"Not 's well as others."

It's much more of a glancing thing--little tugs at his collar, tiny nudges at his ankles, bright glimmers at the corner of his gaze. Small marks, here and there, that they admire his aunt well enough to want to keep him safe.

"Y've to be nice to them even if you never meet them."